Black Rainbows..

I feel as though I’m trapped in a city of lifeless emotions and black rainbows.
The clouds seem to shine more than the atmosphere of this place.
The smell of judgment and pain is filling my nose.
The streets are all clogged with broken images of who I am.
I’m so lost in a place I built full of people that walk by me without recognizing me.

Untitled..

There she sat, thinking about the wrong guy all over again.
How is it possible to love two people? One more than the other, the one she was with. But the other nonetheless.
If he found about about this, he’d be furious. It was forbidden for her to have anything to do with him after all that had happened. The jealously would drive him to draw blood. She feared for his safety, but missed him more than anything.
Not having him in her life after being so dependent on him made her weak, dreary, sad.
But the weaker she got, the stronger her relationship with him got. He knew something was wrong. No matter how much she lied about being fine, he could tell she wasn’t as happy as she used to be.
She might have successfully blamed it on a lot of other believable things, but for how long?
Till she ran out of convincing reasons? Or till she couldn’t take it anymore?
She couldn’t lose him. She truly did love him.
How naive how her to want the best of both worlds just for once.
The best of two worlds that were very aware of each other, and were almost polar opposites.
One kind, caring, an asylum for her sensitivity but unable to grant her freedom and the other strong, protective but somewhat harsh on her weaknesses.
She knew what had to be done. But she couldn’t bring herself to do it.
She knew what she’d be getting into.
She didn’t want to hurt either of them, but blame her for being so helpless without either one.

You can’t hide from who you are… So be yourself! Be Proud to be YOU.

Always be yourself.
Make-up can temporarily paint over your flaws.
Pretending can temporarily fool people into thinking you’re something you’re not.
But eventually, when all the make-up washes off and you’re too sick and tired to pretend anymore,
Your true inner self stumbles out from behind the mess.
And if you try pretending you’re someone you aren’t for too long,
Then those foolish enough to fall for it will not understand the sudden change in you.
Ironically, the change will actually be who you are, but they won’t know that because they were too accustomed to your facade.

If you want people to like you for who you really are,
Have the guts to show them who you really are.
Everyone is beautiful. It’s all the lying and make-up that masks our inner beauty.

You think anyone really loves a person that’s always being fake?
Be careful. If you pretend too long, you might end up forgetting who you really are.
And when that happens, you’ll be lost in a world full of the posters you painted for yourself.
Confused whether the real you is the one you want to be, or the one you are right now.

Have you ever..

Have you ever felt like standing in the rain alone
with your favorite slow song playing in the background
holding his hand so tight that it’s the only sensation of warmth you can feel while your body is numbed by the ice cold raindrops
And just being open and receptive to all the emotions that are rushing through your blood like adrenaline..

Have you ever felt like just freezing the moment
stopping time for just enough moments for you to reach out and grab him
hug him so openly in front of everyone to let them know he’s yours
But the only difference being no one would know what just happened because they were frozen in time..

Have you ever felt like just getting onto that stage
grabbing the mike from the hands of whoever is up there
and just singing your heart out without caring about how you sound
Or who is watching you while you make every moment worthwhile..

Have you ever felt so lost
like just getting onto a train and letting it take you till as far as it can go
where the people are nicer and more loving
More importantly somewhere.. where nobody knows who you are..

Have you ever felt so angry about something
with someone or because of someone
that you literally feel like you are doing them a favor by inhibiting your rage from taking control of you
But only till the next time..

Have you ever just wanted to let go
and fall into the arms or hands of whatever or whoever is left to hold you
hoping that there is someone there
But not really worrying about it at all..

Have you ever cried so damn hard
that you can feel the tears coming out of your broken love
You know you need to stop because you can’t breathe properly anymore
But you can’t.. You just can’t stop..

Have you ever felt so in touch with your surroundings
that you smile at every change around you
and believe that no matter what happens
You do have a destiny to fulfill, even though you don’t really even know what it is..

Have you ever felt like just breaking away
from all your burdens and responsibilities because you have had more than enough
you don’t even care about who your decisions will affect from now on
You just have to feel free, alive, independent..

Have you ever felt so happy
that you feel as though your joy has filled you with enough energy to circle the globe a million times
that you are so light that you can fly
And you make everyone around you as happy as you are

Have you ever felt so protective
like you’re guarding something that has more value and importance than the most valuable thing on earth
and that anyone who tries to even approach it is a threat to its existence
So you behave like a shield, hiding it, protecting it..

Have you ever felt like this moment is yours
you want to cease it but you don’t know how to
yet you enjoy it more than ever
Because you feel as though, at least for right now, you own the world..

Have you ever felt so special
made to feel like you’re the only one that really matters anymore
like even your flaws are perfect and your decisions are final and pending
Like no matter what, you’re always going to be the one..

Have you ever felt love
it takes over your soul and makes you feel like you belong
it hits you harder every time you think about it, every day seems newer, every moment more cherish-able
and before you  know it you find yourself bound to someone in a way you never thought imaginable..
Ever willing to hold on..
Never wanting to let go..

“AIR RAID ON PEARL HARBOR X THIS IS NOT DRILL…”

What were the Japanese thinking when they concocted their Pearl Harbor plan? Were they not aware that such an act would ignite outrage in the American people and invite retribution? Had the delivery of the 14-page document to Secretary Hull been on time, would it have mitigated the outcome? Japan eventually paid the dearest price for its conduct.

On December 7, 1941, Japanese planes attacked the United States Naval Base at Pearl Harbor,Hawaii Territory, killing more than 2,300 Americans. The U.S.S. Arizona was completely destroyed and the U.S.S. Oklahoma capsized.  A total of twelve ships sank or were beached in the attack and nine additional vessels were damaged. More than 160 aircraft were destroyed and more than 150 others damaged.

A hurried dispatch from the ranking United States naval officer in Pearl Harbor, Commander in Chief Pacific, to all major navy commands and fleet units provided the first official word of the attack at the ill-prepared Pearl Harbor base. It said simply: AIR RAID ON PEARL HARBOR X THIS IS NOT DRILL.

WHAT HAPPENED?

When the first Japanese attack wave arrived over Pearl Harbor seven of their primary targets, the U.S. battleships, were moored along “Battleship Row”, on the eastern side of Ford Island. Another battleship was in drydock in the nearby Navy Yard. Other moorings which the Japanese believed might include battleships, or the equally important aircraft carriers, were at the Navy Yard’s 1010 Dock and along Ford Island’s western side.

The Japanese initially hit airfields, including that on Ford Island. Dive bombers attacked there at about 7:55 AM, destroying many aircraft, among them PBY patrol planes at the island’s southern tip. This attack prompted the dispatch of the famous message “Air raid, Pearl Harbor — this is no drill”, the outside World’s first indication that war had come to the Pacific.

Within a few moments, torpedo planes attacked from east and west, with one of the latter torpedoing the USS Helena at 1010 dock. Others, from the same direction, hit USS Utah and USS Raleigh, off the western side of Ford Island.

The great majority of the torpedo planes came in from the east, flying up the waterway between Pearl Harbor Navy Yard and the Submarine Base to hit the ships on that side of Ford Island. They put two “fish” into USS California, at the southern end of the row. At the northern end, another struck USS Nevada. The outboard ships in the center of “Battleship Row”, USS Oklahoma and West Virginia, each had their port sides torn open by many torpedoes.

As the torpedo planes were completing their work, horizontal bombers swept up “Battleship Row”, dropping armor-piercing bombs. Several ships were hit. One received a death blow, as USS Arizona blew up with a tremendous explosion.

Planes of the second attack wave revisited some of the ships already hit, and also spread destruction in the Navy Yard, where they bombed the drydocked battleship Pennsylvania and three destroyers. Other dive bombers went after the Nevada, which had left her berth and was trying to get to sea. Very heavy anti-aircraft gunfire greeted these aircraft, whose losses were significantly greater than those of the first attack wave.

The raiders had no opportunity to hit American aircraft carriers, all of which were at sea, and did not target fuel storage, most cruisers and destroyers, submarines and most maintenance facilities. However, in just under two hours they had wrecked the U.S. Pacific Fleet’s battleship force, ensuring that it would not interfere with Japan’s plans for conquest.

188 U.S. aircraft were destroyed; 2,402 men were killed and 1,282 wounded. The power station, shipyard, maintenance, and fuel and torpedo storage facilities, as well as the submarine piers and headquarters building (also home of the intelligence section) were not attacked. Japanese losses were light: 29 aircraft and five midget submarines lost, and 65 servicemen killed or wounded. One Japanese sailor was captured.

WHY DID THE JAPANESE ATTACK PEARL HARBOR?

The road to war between Japan and the United States began in the 1930s when differences over China drove the two nations apart. In 1931 Japan conquered Manchuria, which until then had been part of China. In 1937 Japan began a long and ultimately unsuccessful campaign to conquer the rest of China. In 1940, the Japanese government allied their country with Nazi Germany in the Axis Alliance, and, in the following year, occupied all of Indochina.

The United States, which had important political and economic interests in East Asia, was alarmed by these Japanese moves. The U.S. increased military and financial aid to China, embarked on a program of strengthening its military power in the Pacific, and cut off the shipment of oil and other raw materials to Japan.

Because Japan was poor in natural resources, its government viewed these steps, especially the embargo on oil as a threat to the nation’s survival. Japan’s leaders responded by resolving to seize the resource-rich territories of Southeast Asia, even though that move would certainly result in war with the United States.

The problem with the plan was the danger posed by the U.S. Pacific Fleet based at Pearl Harbor. Admiral Isoroku Yamamoto, commander of the Japanese fleet, devised a plan to immobilize the U.S. fleet at the outset of the war with a surprise attack.

The key elements in Yamamoto’s plans were meticulous preparation, the achievement of surprise, and the use of aircraft carriers and naval aviation on an unprecedented scale. In the spring of 1941, Japanese carrier pilots began training in the special tactics called for by the Pearl Harbor attack plan.

In October 1941 the naval general staff gave final approval to Yamamoto’s plan, which called for the formation of an attack force commanded by Vice Admiral Chuichi Nagumo. It centered around six heavy aircraft carriers accompanied by 24 supporting vessels. A separate group of submarines was to sink any American warships which escaped the Japanese carrier force.

The attacking planes came in two waves; the first hit its target at 7:53 AM, the second at 8:55. By 9:55 it was all over. By 1:00 PM the carriers that launched the planes from 274 miles off the coast of Oahu were heading back to Japan.

WORDS OF THE PRESIDENT.. Franklin Roosevelt.

“It will be recorded that the distance of Hawaii from Japan makes it obvious that the attack was deliberately planned many days or even weeks ago. During the intervening time the Japanese Government had deliberately sought to deceive the United States by false statements and expressions of hope for continued peace.

The attack yesterday on the Hawaiian Islands has caused severe damage to American naval and military forces. Very many American

 lives were lost. In addition American ships have been reported torpedoed on the high seas between San Francisco and Honolulu.

Yesterday the Japanese Government also launched an attack against Malaya.

Last night Japanese forces attacked Hong Kong.

                                                                Last night Japanese forces attacked Guam.

Last night Japanese forces attacked the Philippine Islands.

Last night Japanese forces attacked Wake Island.

This morning the Japanese attacked Midway Island.

Japan has, therefore, undertaken a surprise offensive extending throughout the Pacific area. The facts of yesterday speak for themselves. The people of the United States have already formed their opinions and well understand the implications to the very life and safety of our nation.

As Commander in Chief of the Army and Navy I have directed that all measures be taken for our defense.

Always will we remember the character of the onslaught against us.

No matter how long it may take us to overcome this premeditated invasion, the American people in their righteous might will win through to absolute victory.

I believe I interpret the will of the Congress and of the people when I assert that we will not only defend ourselves to the uttermost but will make very certain that this form of treachery shall never endanger us again.

Hostilities exist. There is no blinking at the fact that our people, our territory, and our interests are in grave danger.

With confidence in our armed forces-with the unbounded determination of our people-we will gain the inevitable triumph-so help us God.

I ask that the Congress declare that since the unprovoked and dastardly attack by Japan on Sunday, 7 December, a state of war has existed between the United States and the Japanese Empire.”

A SURVIVOR’S STORY

The story of D. Weissman, Seaman, First Class is as follows:

I was in the lower handling room of Turret IV. After the first hit, I went to the shell deck. The lights went out and the ship started to turn over. I went to the lower handling room and followed a man with a flash light. I entered the trunk just outside of handling room on the starboard side. The lower handling room flooded completely. Water entered the trunk. I dove and swam to the bottom of the trunk and left the ship through the hatch at the main deck and swam to the surface.

Eleven men in the lower handling room of turret IV escaped through the lucky bag. When the rescue party cut a hole in the lucky bag, the water rose rapidly but all men were removed before the water flooded the lucky bag completely.

Five men were in the five inch twenty-five caliber handling room preparatory to sending up anti-aircraft ammunition. They escaped to the five inch handling room and reduced flooding through ventilation ducts by stuffing rags in the lines. They were eventually saved by the rescue party by way of the shaft alley.

Eight men with water up to their necks were rescued from the steering compartment after these men, who had set condition “Z,” were enabled to enter the steering room through the hole made for them. Three holes were made in all; pumps were in use constantly to keep the level of the water and oil below the danger point.

CONCLUSION

As the shock turned into anger, America’s leaders acted quickly. The day after the attack, before a joint session of Congress, President Roosevelt made his famous speech that labeled December 7 as “a date which will live in infamy.” The Senate voted unanimously for war. The House vote would have been unanimous, too, were it not for one interesting historical footnote: Montana’s Jeannette Rankin (a pacifist) voted against war saying that “she wanted to show that a good democracy does not always vote unanimously for war.” Three days after Pearl Harbor, Germany and Italy declared war on the US, and Congress passed another joint resolution fully involving the US in World War II.

Lights in Darkness.

 

Cast out the darkness,  but then don’t expect to see how bright the light is shining.

Completely illuminate your life, but then don’t expect to be able to tell the difference between artificial and natural light.

Don’t run way from your worries, the more you run, the more tired you will get.. and when they eventually do catch up to you, you will be too tired to fight them like you could have before.

Instead of trying to inspire the idea, try and inspire the person. Planting the seed deep enough will ensure a stronger gradual grip in comparison to a seed grown on the periphery.

Don’t take anything for granted. Even a day free of infection is due to the millions of cells fighting off the bacteria you constantly breathe in. Every day without infection is a battle won.

If you take the fact that your father comes home after work every evening for granted, ask a child whose father just died what he would do for that to happen to him one more time.

If you want to know what regret feels like, then ask a smoker with lung cancer, who wishes he had listened to his loved ones when they begged and warned him to stop.

Darkness can only rule you over when you blow out the candle, or leave the window open to blow the candle out for you just in case you need something else to blame.

Nobody except for you is responsible for the things that happen to you.
If you have been mistreated, it’s only because you allowed someone to do you wrong.
It’s only human to try and find something or someone to blame your problems on.
Try and figure out any possible excuse to make yourself believe that it wasn’t your fault, just so that you can get some closure.

But sometimes, think realistically.

Your expensive bag wouldn’t have gotten stolen if you would have been more careful.
Your house wouldn’t have been broken into if you would have invested in better security software.

You wouldn’t have been broken up with if you would have chosen the right kind of guy in the first place.

Then the question will arise in your mind of How you were supposed to know it was going to happen. Right?
Well it’s quite simple. You didn’t. You couldn’t have. There’s no way of telling what curved balls your life is going to throw at you.
But you must remember. Even though you didn’t know the consequence, at the end of the day YOU are the one who made the choice, or let someone else make the choice for you.
So you are the one accountable for it.

Instead of wasting your time harboring hatred for someone, try spending that same amount of energy fixing what went wrong.
You’ll suddenly notice that you’re a lot better off than you were when you spent your time cursing people.

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Disguised Love

Love is like gravity. A strange, freeing, compromising, emotion-filled pull that keeps us grounded, but at the same time  enables us to fly high and dream openly about our most cherished fantasies. It’s like a treasure chest filled with all our favorite moments that just mesmerizes us and evades the limitations of willingness and drowns us in an ocean of moments that capture our heart and souls every second of the day. When it hits you, it lifts you up and lightens your burdens , you feel like your dancing with butterflies in a sky lit with the northern lights. You fell like flying alongside shooting stars and you feel strong enough to be able to tame even the harshest streak of lightening. Every second seems longer, but yet somehow time begins to fly past you. Even an incident that occurred a year ago seems like it caught hold of you only yesterday.
Willingness, compromise, pain hope, happiness, disappointment and thousands of the emotions fill you up to the brim and somewhere lost among these emotions, you try and find your way to the surface.

But every time you get even near the top, near even a quarter of an understanding to what you’re going through, these emotions magnify and you find yourself buried under them all over again. You find a moment filled with happiness can lift you up past the tallest mountain and in almost a split-second, when you experience pain, that very same mountain feels like its been put on dropped of your chest, not allowing you to breathe. Love calms you down and that same love hypes you up to the extent that you feel like you can outrun even light if the person you love is standing at the finish-line as your reward for winning. You feel ready to take any bullet, hit or measure of pain for that person just as long as they remain happy, safe and protected.

You are at your most vulnerable… and that’s when love comes and stabs you so sharply in your heart that you are stunned and can no longer breathe or think.

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